I can’t be the only one who’s ever felt stuck in their life, can I?
It seems as though this past week (heck, the past month!) I’ve been confronted with brick walls of all shapes and sizes – in my marriage with Matt, in my relationships with family members (many of whom I no longer have a relationship with), my faith journey, my many, many jobs, my physical fitness … sometimes, it seems as though the more I try to fix something or get ahead somewhere, the more things get messed up. The more times I try to speak up and voice an opinion or an idea, the sooner I get shot down. This of course only leads me to feelings of “stuckness.” If that’s even a word, which I doubt.
I know that God has a plan for my life – obviously I wouldn’t have gotten as far as I have if that weren’t true. But sometimes, it can be really hard to not get ahead of God, if you know what I mean. I want to get farther in my career, so instead of waiting for one of the many opportunities that come around – eventually – I try to go ahead and make my own, which usually tend to blow up in my face. You get the picture, I’m sure.
Maybe it’s the impending promise of summer that’s making me so restless, or the fact that Matt and I are now dancing around the subject of children and the prospect scares the heck out of me. Whatever it is, all I know is that I feel really, really, really stuck.
Thanks for letting me vent my frustrations. What do you think I should do, besides go on a bender this weekend?
Music playing while writing this: “She Moves in Her Own Way” by the Kooks